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Obssession And Hunger Of A Food Addict

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Posted 07-17-2010 at 04:20 PM by caninemom3
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[B]Tonight, Saturday, I am really struggling. I have run a gamot of emotions lately and each time I do my food obssession seems to kick in. I want to eat EVERYTHING in the house. Why do I get like this ?? My body is not truly hungry (at least I don't think it is). It just seems that all of my life has been spent dieting or gaining weight. I have been successful at losing weight many times as I am sure all of us have. The trick is to KEEP it off. I even did that for about 3 or 4 years. Then the hunger/obssession/binging returned as it ALWAYS DOES and I gained 30+ pounds in no time. I felt helpless. [/B]

[B]For the time being, I am not overweight. I am 5 feet, 2 inches and I am very, very small framed ( just like my mom, Susy) and I weigh in the range of 92 to 93 pounds. This is a good weight for my body. I know it is slight but any more weight and I kick into asthma. [/B]

[B]It just seems as though once I get food/eating "on the brain" it will NOT go away. I have tried and tried to distract myself with walking/reading/showering/ praying/ talking to a friend/etc. and nothing seems to work. The only thing that makes it go away is binging after which I become very sad and distraught. I do not want to gain back the weight again. I am getting far too old to be doing this. If only I could figure out why I want to comfort myself with food !! What is it about food ?? For goodness sake !! I don't know if any of you are like me. If you are, I empathize and sympathize with you. I also support you. We are kindred spirits, those of us who have disordered eating and thus far, I have found no books or counseling to be of help. I suppose I will deal with it for the rest of my life. I have so far dealt with this "eating thing" for the last 30+ years. There are many worse things to deal with so I still considered myself blessed. I wanted to share these feelings with you, my Christmas family. I know some of you have been where I am. If any of you know a way through this, please let me know how you managed it. Nobody seems to understand, especially when they see me. The response I seem to get is "Oh you could stand to gain some......" I know this is meant to be helpful but to me it is like telling an alcoholic he or she could stand to get drunk just once more. God WILL see me through this I know. He has ALWAYS seen me through even when I thought He was not there and if God is involved I am not alone. All I have to do is take hold of His hand and walk with him and be willing and open to learn but the truly important thing I must remember and remind myself of is that our Father loves US....ALL OF US. Not just the OUTSIDE but in particular the INSIDE. Perhaps that is where I should start myself. By loving me INSIDE and OUT, being more accepting, more forgiving of myself as at this point, I look at myself and think Ugh. I ask God sometimes why he made me so ugly ?? Why could I not have been pretty ?? It's AMAZING I have ever gotten a date let alone been married twice. I was even made fun of in school because of my looks, which I am sure has an impact on how I have come to regard myself. Perhaps, though, if I could somehow be more tolerable and accepting of myself [/B]
[B]maybe then, by His grace, God will allow the metamorphosis begin. It would be miraculous if I could somehow emerge someday as a beautiful butterfly of God instead of the little brown moth or more specifically creepy many legged caterpillar I perceive myself to be now......But even as a moth or a caterpillar, God loves me no less ......[/B]
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    ChristmasHeart's Avatar
    I will tell you this, my friend...God doesn't make mistakes. You gotta remember, you're always gonna be a better you, than anyone else! (I've taken that from a song by Carolyn Dawn Johnson, entitled "God Doesn't Make Mistakes"). You are His daughter and He made you beautiful on the inside and out! You've got the right idea...hold onto God's hand - and remember that He does not make mistakes!
    Posted 07-17-2010 at 05:29 PM by ChristmasHeart ChristmasHeart is offline
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    For the past year, I have been going to school and I have recently become a certified Professional Hypnotist. I'm now taking the next step and am getting my certification in Hypno-Therapy.

    I have seen this behavior many times. If I may, I'd like to try and explain what's happening.

    Basically, your mind is made up of two parts: the conscious and subconscious mind.

    One of the functions of the conscious mind is the setting of goals. "I WILL lose weight. I WILL stop binge eating. I WILL pat cats from head to tail and not the other way around."

    Your subconscious mind is where you store your beliefs and perceptions (plus so much more). "I believe eating food when I'm depressed makes me feel better. I believe cats like being pet the wrong way. Etc..."

    Your subconscious mind doesn't judge whether these beliefs are right or wrong. It simply takes what it's given and acts upon it. And it does it with the power of the universe, so to speak. When we "put our minds" to something, we're talking about this part of the mind.

    Whenever the two parts of the mind disagree (causing psychological disagreement), the subconscious mind ALWAYS wins. No exceptions. So you can consciously say you'll stop binge eating but there's something in your subconscious that believes that binging serves you in some way.

    The good news is that through hypnosis, you can change that belief just as easy as changing a file name on a computer. It doesn't matter that you've had this issue for 30 years. Within three hypnosis sessions, your problem could just...disappear...forever!

    I'd like to suggest looking up an ethical hypno-therapist in your area. And if you like, I'd be happy to answer any questions or concerns you may have regarding hypnosis beforehand. I've performed hypnosis with many people and have undergone it even more. It's safe. It's effective. And it's the most relaxing experience ever!

    Please, feel free to Private Message me if you'd like to talk more. I'm only too happy to help! And that goes for anyone else here on My Merry Christmas.

    Whatever you decide, good luck with everything! Things will work out. I promise!
    Posted 07-20-2010 at 01:31 PM by LightningFlashJack LightningFlashJack is offline

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