Hi Susy, or I guess I should say mom.
Yes, it's me again. I miss you so much. You must know that because I tell you every single day. Mama, I hope you are okay.
If I could just speak to you and know you are well again, not suffering and happy then maybe I would not tear up everytime I think about you. We were always such wonderful and close friends as well as mom and daughter. You never hesitated to be the "mom" if the situation needed it and never shirked your responsibility by trying to be the "friend" all the time. You were always by my side even though I was not always by yours.
What a terrible and awful child I was to you. Except I somehow got the courage and foiled the plans to put you in a nursing home which was a very bad one and I did put a halt on your receiving a PEG tube which you certainly did not need. Those two situations would have been the work of my brother, Julius. But somehow, I got the courage and spoke...