The most wonderful time of the year is upon us again. Christmas time. The lights, the feeling, the magic in the air that you can actually breath in. Most everyone in my Christmas family are looking forward to the Season of Seasons. I love Christmas absolutlely and totally adore it yet this evening as much as I want to think about it and feel the excitement like everyone else, I cannot.
Frustration. Anger. Sadness. Hopelessnes. Uncertainty. Fear. Regret.
These feelings are not the feelings of someone who is looking forward to Christmas. Instead they are feelings which indicate and have indicated for many years the need for a drastic change in lifestyle. A change I am not brave enough in any way, shape or form to bring about.
I have spoken of this in the past and for those who have read my blog, you know what and who I am referring to.
The problem is I feel powerless to effect the changes that I know in the long run would be best...